I've dived again
Not wanting to be saved this time
I called for help before
No one listened
This pain persists
The anger lives in a box next to my tears
My lips are soaked from the tears that appear when you are near
I'm falling forever
Why can I lay here alone and forget time
The same you use to forget about me
Is the same time I use to try and forget you
Your ignorance to my pain sickens me
My appetite was donated to the souls feeding themselves off of my agony
Distrust and lust
Pain and memories
Sex and lies
Never want to leave this place they call "alone"
I'm fine here I promise
My eyes won't come off the ground to explore much else
The memories here are so familiar
If I ran forever through the grass that I lie in when I'm weak, and comforted by when I'm sleep...
Would this same grass remember me?
Will it lead me to brightness?
Will my wounds heal when I finally make it?
Because people won't understand me
I've tried to tell them all
They won't listen
I fear I am alone and always have been
Will someone look for me and find the things I have written laying next to my soft, warm hands? In a book of tattered and tear dried pages from the pain you have caused.
Truth is..
I've been gone for month
Tryna play it off smooth, like he's got better things to do
He can front that to you
Probably laying in someone's fantasy, naked.
Letting the silk white sheets hug every curve of my body
Letting the sun hit my face and ricochet off my breast into the tall mirror in front of me
The same mirror I can barely stare into
The only thing in this world that won't lie to me
I don't know what's real and what's not
I hear laughter outside
I feel pain inside
I still can't eat
I'm more hungry for attention
The sex that used to drive me insane is now the reason for this pain
When they look at me
They..
What do you think they see?
Can they see everything?
I am afraid they can.
I tried to tell them before
But no one would listen
Happy Anniversary to the death of me
I am lost in a world full of people who don't believe in me because i believe in you
I'm not in my own mind
I can't be trusted to be there anymore
Will you wake up?
I want my life back
You only touch me when you want
Why are your emotions laying next to me?
In this box
This box that you refuse to let anyone in?
Then why are you imagining me?
Why am I in your dreams?
I'm REALER than anything else ever seems
I've been trapped here for months
I'm sick of crying
Please...
Wake up..
Then wake me up....
But when you do...
Look at me and tell me that that box of emotions was real...
And I'll look back at you and tell you that my box of tears were REALER
And when I close my eyes again...just leave..
Cause the pain it causes to see you come and go....is unimaginable
I'll trust this is all a dream.
I pray you never wake up.
I pray I've been sleep this whole time
I've tried...
I tried...
I...
Loved you
